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Dead Inside Pain and heartbreak Tears and blood Life s never been easy for Alex Pushed to become a male prostitute and also having to deal with trauma and abuse in the relationship with his boyfriend, doesn t help ayear old stay sane In his struggle and desperation to get out of that toxic environment, he soon finds himself in the middle of something much worse Caught between two powerful Russian organizations, a broken man and his abusive lover, Alex has to make a decision and he must choose quickly But when he starts spiraling out of control, the lines between life and death begin to blur and his steps seem to take him towards what might very well be his endWarning The book contains triggers and approaches subjects such as abuse, self harm, PTSD, human trafficking, murder and suicidal ideation ➫ [Ebook] ➦ Rumor Has It (Texas Cattleman’s Club: A Missing Mogul By Maureen Child ➶ – 9facts.co.uk doesn t help ayear old stay sane In his struggle and desperation to get out of that toxic environment [PDF] ✎ CEOs Marriage Seduction / His Style of Seduction ✐ Anna DePalo – 9facts.co.uk he soon finds himself in the middle of something much worse Caught between two powerful Russian organizations ❰Reading❯ ➼ ネクラートホリック [Nekrateholic] Author Maguro Wasabi – 9facts.co.uk a broken man and his abusive lover ✻ [EPUB] ✰ Wycliffe and the Cycle of Death By W.J. Burley ❅ – 9facts.co.uk Alex has to make a decision and he must choose quickly But when he starts spiraling out of control ➳ [Reading] ➶ All The Flowers in Paris By Sarah Jio ➩ – 9facts.co.uk the lines between life and death begin to blur and his steps seem to take him towards what might very well be his endWarning The book contains triggers and approaches subjects such as abuse [EPUB] ✵ Flashpoint By Connie Hall – 9facts.co.uk self harm [PDF / Epub] ☉ Baby Twins ❤ Teresa Carpenter – 9facts.co.uk PTSD [Reading] ➶ Found ➽ Amy Andrews – 9facts.co.uk human trafficking ☂ [PDF / Epub] ☁ The Preachers Wife & Crescent City Courtship By Cheryl St John ✐ – 9facts.co.uk murder and suicidal ideation


About the Author: Alexander Ward

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10 thoughts on “Dead Inside

  1. Lorrie Lorrie says:

    Thanks to Jan for putting this on her to read lost because it showed up in my updates feed I probably wouldn t have seen it otherwise It looked interesting and was KU so I started reading it and couldn t put it down It completely sucked me in Alex tugged at my heartstrings I felt his desperation and sadness and utter exhaustion with his life, and the tiny bursts of hope This kid just could NOT catch a break Everyone around him saw him as nothing but a possession and toy, and he just wante Thanks to Jan for putting this on her to read lost because it showed up in my updates feed I probably wouldn t have seen it otherwise It looked interesting and was KU so I started reading it and couldn t put it down It completely sucked me in Alex tugged at my heartstrings I felt his desperation and sadness and utter exhaustion with his life, and the tiny bursts of hope This kid just could NOT catch a break Everyone around him saw him as nothing but a possession and toy, and he just wanted to mean something to someone and be loved and cared for Broke my heart The ending gave me a tiny burst of hope, but I m not getting my hopes up at this point because Alex has only been let down time and time again I m really rooting for him and Ray though This deserves a spot on my favorites list


  2. Steph ☀️ Steph ☀️ says:

    Interesting.I have to say the underlying story, though a bit flawed, was good My only complaints are that this story is in need of an editor and some of Alex s inner dialogue, seemed a bit too much at times I will definitely continue on with series Please be warned that besides a cliffhanger, the story has talks about suicide, noncon, a suicide attempt, torture and death.


  3. Tina Tina says:

    LOVE IT Get ready bc Miss Ward is going to take you for an emotional roller coaster ride I would recommend you to read the BLURB, before reading this book, bc it is not for the faint hearted I had the pleasure of beta read this very touching interesting story Not a love and a flowers kind of book, it s dark all the way through, and it will catch you from the very first page Make it stop I want to make it stop I can LOVE IT Get ready bc Miss Ward is going to take you for an emotional roller coaster ride I would recommend you to read the BLURB, before reading this book, bc it is not for the faint hearted I had the pleasure of beta read this very touching interesting story Not a love and a flowers kind of book, it s dark all the way through, and it will catch you from the very first page Make it stop I want to make it stop I can t breathe.Alex My poor sweet Alex, my heart broke for him, he was one broken soul and it was so hard to read his thoughts heartbreaking I m done, as a human being I m torn in tiny little pieces, left floating in this infinite, uncaring universeI am aloneI m a sucker for angry alpha man and Raymond is just that Even though I should hate him, I have nothing but LOVE for him and I do NOT think that the author can do anything that will change my mind I so hope that we get his POV in the next book No HEA or HFN, it s a cliffhanger


  4. Ed Davis Ed Davis says:

    This had to be one of the most boring books I ever read It was the same repetitive thing over and over I hated Alex He provoked Stefan until he beat him In fact, he createdthan half his own problems However, what made this one of the most boooring books I ever read was the constant dreaded inner monologue I mean this man never shuts up talking to himself On top of that he says the same thing over and over.


  5. James James says:

    Very good, but long read I really enjoyed the story line I downloaded this on accident and then just read it I am sure I will check out the next book as well My only concern was all of the details Don t get me wrong, details are important but sometimes it just felt like they were a bit much But, that s just my ADHD I assume.


  6. Jill Hughes Jill Hughes says:

    Temporary Bliss Dead Inside is a story of a loss soul, Alex, trapped in the midst of powerful mob bosses using him like a piece of property, until he realizes he is dead inside and how he plans on escaping his fate.This is a tragic but beautiful look from within our MC s point of view as he navigates through his life battling love, loss, friendship and hate, trying to determine who really loves him and who is using him Alex wonders if he has ever found love before or was he mistaken The story Temporary Bliss Dead Inside is a story of a loss soul, Alex, trapped in the midst of powerful mob bosses using him like a piece of property, until he realizes he is dead inside and how he plans on escaping his fate.This is a tragic but beautiful look from within our MC s point of view as he navigates through his life battling love, loss, friendship and hate, trying to determine who really loves him and who is using him Alex wonders if he has ever found love before or was he mistaken The story has an abundance of action with crime bosses battling for turf dealing with drugs, guns, money and prostitutes and of course murders and betrayals Each trying to pull Alex to their side It is a great read, lots of dark topics covered, such as prostitution, murder, beatings, suicide


  7. Carol Dawn Carol Dawn says:

    First and foremost, I want to warn everyone, because not everyone actually listens when they read it DO NOT TAKE THE WARNING LIGHTLY IT IS THERE FOR A REASON So many people will read a warning and ignore it thinking that they can handle it and then complain in the comments about it If an author says, warning, listen to it This book is stocked full of possible triggers.Okay, now that that s out of the way My reviews are solely based on my opinion and feelings I m not a storyline reviewer.T First and foremost, I want to warn everyone, because not everyone actually listens when they read it DO NOT TAKE THE WARNING LIGHTLY IT IS THERE FOR A REASON So many people will read a warning and ignore it thinking that they can handle it and then complain in the comments about it If an author says, warning, listen to it This book is stocked full of possible triggers.Okay, now that that s out of the way My reviews are solely based on my opinion and feelings I m not a storyline reviewer.This book grabbed me from the first chapter and held tight until the end It was completely packed full of action My feelings towards some of the characters are conflicting I wanted to hate them with a passion, but part of me couldn t because I actually, kinda, sorta liked them I know, I know It s confusing and I can t explain why without freely handing out spoilers And, I m just not that type of reviewer You re just going to have to read it and find out what I m talking about.This book is strictly through Alex s point of view I don t like single point of views Mainly because I love getting inside the minds of both MC s But, in this case, I think it s perfect Alex tells us his story every single tear induced, heart pounding, me wanting to turn into a murderer, moment.I wanted to reach through my tablet, grab Alex and wrap him in the tightest hug I could He s being pulled in so many different directions I m in awe of his inner strength.If you re looking for a happily ever after, super sweet romance story, just move along, because this book is not it It is dark and gritty from the first page to the last.This does not have a happily ever after ending I m not even sure if it s a happy for now ending But, the ending looks like a turning point for our wonderful, sweet and strong Alex It does end of a cliffhanger, and what a cliff it is I m hanging by my pinkie here.This was one heck of an emotional roller coaster I can t wait for the next book to come out Maybe we can get some POVs from Alex s special man Link to my full review below


  8. Susan65 Susan65 says:

    4.5 star review by The Blogger GirlsHarsh, cold, cruel, heartless, helpless, and hopeless These are just a few of the adjectives that describe this story We can t forget the violence and complete disregard for humanity either But, in the midst of all that blackness lies a chance A chance that by the end a small piece of Alex will survive and find a token of peace A very small chance.This story takes place in Bucharest, Romania, and includes clashing Romanian and Russian mafia s that both en 4.5 star review by The Blogger GirlsHarsh, cold, cruel, heartless, helpless, and hopeless These are just a few of the adjectives that describe this story We can t forget the violence and complete disregard for humanity either But, in the midst of all that blackness lies a chance A chance that by the end a small piece of Alex will survive and find a token of peace A very small chance.This story takes place in Bucharest, Romania, and includes clashing Romanian and Russian mafia s that both end up using Alex in the most debased ways possible for their own selfish reasons Alex is only 19 He has no real family, and his boyfriend, Stefan, beats him near to death, whores him out for money, and sells him to the highest bidder only to beat him somefor cheating on him Needless to say, there was not much love there even if Alex and Stefan believes there is, at first.Stefan is one of the bad guys And when he sells Alex to Raymond for the night, the entire storyline goes down a rabbit hole withtwists and turns than one can imagine, but the underlying theme of fear, violence, rape, and betrayal remains front and center I had high hopes for Raymond, but as the story went on, I was gettingandnervous And then I just expected Alex to die Really, how much can one person stand Ray has secrets but his treatment of Alex is contradictory and, at times, cold I need to know those secrets I need to know who Danya was, and I need to know why so many of Ray s men are familiar to Alex So much was left unspoken in this 300 page story But, it is a series, so I have hope, even if Alex does not.This is not normally not my kind of story I usually go for the betrayal and cheating, but this one took those components and exponentially skyrocketed them to the next level I have no idea how Alex survived this book I have no idea where the story goes from here either, as this one ended unfinished I would not say a true cliffhanger, but we have a lot of unanswered questions So my recommendation is, if you don t have too many triggers, to read it I definitely recommended it, I already have, and I hope you can see the brilliance that I saw in the writing, and the hope that Alex s story eventually has a happy ending.Overall Impression I loved it


  9. Kaila Kaila says:

    omg omg omg omg omg like im not entirely sure i have words for this review haha. it is. everything. these characters were so horrible and amazing at the same time. i didnt know whether to hate or love them lol what do i even say. alex had my heart from the start. he was so young. so loving and just needed and wanted someone. unfortuantly stefan wasnt that person but thats who and what he knew even through the bad raymond. i will admit i also fell head over heels for him as well. h omg omg omg omg omg like im not entirely sure i have words for this review haha. it is. everything. these characters were so horrible and amazing at the same time. i didnt know whether to hate or love them lol what do i even say. alex had my heart from the start. he was so young. so loving and just needed and wanted someone. unfortuantly stefan wasnt that person but thats who and what he knew even through the bad raymond. i will admit i also fell head over heels for him as well. he wasnt good. he wasnt the knight in shining armour. he was the villian. he was also a knight. he was a bit of everything. but he loved. strong. and stefan was just vile. but you cant help but like him just a teeny tiny bit. these characters are one of those things that stick with you. this story sticks with you. and its a cliffy. which i didnt know going into it but i am kinda glad i didnt because normally i perfer to wait to read cliffys especially since this one isnt even a hea or hfn cliffy haha. but it was so amazing i am glad i read this because. holy hell i cannot wait for the next


  10. Julie Julie says:

    Dark, intense but so good This is a dark story about a young man, Alex, who was forced to become a rent boy in Bucharest, Romania when he is kicked out of his house for being gay At the Beginning, we learn about his struggles living with Stefan who is his pimp and at times he believes he loves for helping him off the streets when no one wanted him even if he sends him off to sleep with others, and physically and mentally abuses him As the book progresses there are many twists in turns as the Dark, intense but so good This is a dark story about a young man, Alex, who was forced to become a rent boy in Bucharest, Romania when he is kicked out of his house for being gay At the Beginning, we learn about his struggles living with Stefan who is his pimp and at times he believes he loves for helping him off the streets when no one wanted him even if he sends him off to sleep with others, and physically and mentally abuses him As the book progresses there are many twists in turns as the mafia get involved, Alex is tossed around as they all want to use him for something He battles depression, self harm and struggles when he meets Raymond I fell in love with Raymond and craved their shared moments together I felt for Alex and the vicious circle of the life he was caught living and with not a lot of alternative options This is so different from what I ve read before but it just kept me turning the pages and cheering for Alex the whole time I m hoping for a second book as this left me wanting


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